My Bitter Lemonade

The old saying goes " when life gives you lemons .... Make lemonade". My life seems to give me a plethora of ish that I can't combine to make anything good out of. It is like going to the pantry and having peanut butter and not bread ... Or having milk and no cereal .
Everyday is an ongoing struggle for me to press on and accept the fact that HEY this is what being an adult is all about. I just had my life spared from what could have been a near fatal crash (pictures below) to come to find out that my finances are not straight that my plans I had have to take an immediate detour and I'm just stuck like a duck in the mud.
I did something today that I need to be forgiven for... And that is to be ungrateful to God for his mercy and grace he has placed on my life ... He spared me which he did not have to do and here I am 2 days later letting all the pressures of my life weighing me down stating I should have just died on Saturday....... PAUSE ... Did I really just say that?
The burdens in life are there for a reason ... I know alll too well about dealing with the burdens and trials and tribulations of road blocks on the way to u life fulfillment... But just like in countless stories in the Bible where God had to test his people to build them up and make them strong and also to see how worthy they were to receive the blessings He had for them.... They NEVER complained ...
So its almost like I spoke curses onto God for blessing me with another day to live and breath and make right alllllll the wrongs... I take that back because that was not what I feel in my heart... What I do know is I have a greater purpose in life then I could ever imagine but God knows it and He is building me up and strengthening me for what is to come... For my destiny. So I hope that God will not forsake me or count my slip of the tongue during my emotional state against me.. For He knows my heart and yours too.. Confess with your tongue and it shall be.... LOVE LIVE LAUGH

Blessed to Be Here.... without a car!

Life is crazy ... Saturday August 14 was supposed to be a great day... I had just spent the whole day with my best friends family. They are awesome, my best friends family, we all spent Friday celebrating her mothers accomplishment of graduating from Graduate School. We were to get up on Saturday and get on the road to Memphis, 3 hours away to go see Trey Songz live in concert at the Orpheum.
Now let me be the one to say I LOVVVVVEEEEEE TREY SONGZ, I had beencountdown all month for the 15th to come. We spent a nice lil penny onthe tickets too but it didn't matter because Trey Songz is fine and Ilove his music.
But on the way from nashville to memphis it began to rain and my carhydroplaned and veered into traffic... We crashed into a railing on the highway and then we were hit by a car and then hit again by an 18 wheeler. My best friend and I were able to walk out of the car with just a few scratches, bumps and bruises. WE ARE TRULY BLESSED. Wesurvived a crash that many people would not have survived.. My car is TOTALED ... My first car GONE... But I'm counting my blessings becauseI was able to walk out of my car and look at it and see how bad it could have been... I SURVIVED... And I know now that God has a greater plan for my life and that I have not fulfilled my destiny on this here Earth... I am overjoyed and truly blessed to have what I like to think as a second chance in life to get going back down the right path....So count your blessings yall life is too short reach out and tell someone you love them help a friend in need.... Set some goals and work diligently to achieve them everyday... MAKE A DIFFERENCE ... LOVE LIVE LAUGH

Summing things Up... the end of the 1st Week of Feb.

My life has made a turn for the better yall. I am working on seriously getting my life together and actually witnessing the progress. I am so grateful and blessed to have wonderful people around me all the time. My job search is going well and I have made strides to making a very good career decision. I have had several interviews with a very promising outlook. I am working and striving everyday to get back on my feet and back into my own place as soon as possible. I look forward to the COME UP that is ahead of me.
My love life ... its the usual hot mess it always is. I'm finding myself in situations that ummmm maybe I should have thought twice about. However, everything in life is a learning decision and I have managed to learn oh so much from the hot mess people I allow to be in my life. Now I say allow only because... they give me something to be entertained by with the constant games that are played yet I am the Master of mastering the Games that are being played. Currently I don't want to build a relationship with anyone whom I feel I may have doubts in only cause I'm 22 and I have a mission that I need to succeed in. If a guy is not on the same page as me or not even trying to be in the first place we can't continue on.
But enough about relationships and love. I don't want to always be that boring chick that all she has to talk about is relationships and dumb men.. that gets soo old. So in lighter news GO SAINTS. I got to watch the Super Bowl yesterday and i was thoroughly ecstatic about the Saints taking down the Colts. I will be quick to say I am not a bandwagon chick I was cheering for the Saints the whole time, however, I do not have a favorite NFL team. I enjoyed watching the game and watching some of the commercials... My favorite commercial from the whole night was the Doritos commercial with the little boy whos' mom was going out on the date. The little boy slapped the man and told him "keep your hands off my mama and keep your hands off my Doritos" LMAO... the best commercial all night.
I wish I had something to say about halftime but I didn't watch it... I wasn't to interested in The Who and what they were singing. I will say this though about Super Bowl Halftime Shows... they have sucked ever since Janet Jackson and Justin Timberlake performed... I think they need to have younger artist perform and no I'm not necessarily asking for the hot mess artist of my generation but maybe have like a plethora of different artist to appeal to all that watch the Super Bowl ... hell halftime is like 20 minutes.
Well enough of this I getting back on twitter... twitter has totally taken over my life... its very sad actually but I LOVE TWITTER... it is my way to instantly express how I feel at any given moment. I am an Twitterhead and proud of it...lol... Anyways LOVE, LIVE, LAUGH

Cheating @ Sam's

So men are a hot mess... just all around a hot mess.
I have this whole story that can back up why I say men are a hot mess..
So interesting situation that I was in 2 days ago with my friend whos name will stay disclosed.
We had made plans to go and what not on Saturday and we had planned out our whole day and what we were going to do before we went out. So on Friday we had a sleepover at her house to get ready for Saturday. So saturday comes and she is waiting around to see if some of her family members are going to Western Union her some money... but that failed... so she went to another source in here rolodex... She called up this guy who owns a few clubs and what not but has a little extra change... So he decides that he is going to give her some money to hold her over for the rest of the weekend.
So we get up and get ready and leave the house around like 4 o clock... and we stopped and went to my house because I had left without my lipgloss (can't live without it) besides the fact that dude was on good BS not answering the phone.... so he finally texted back and had told her to meet at this gas station that was out in the boonies... cause he lived a good 20 minutes outside of the city.... so we sat there waiting at that gas station for a good 15 mins.. she kept texting and calling trying to find out where he was and when he was coming.. the whole time he sitting there telling us he on the way he still getting ready, making all kind of excuses....
So finally he called her and told her that he is at Sams Club.... he had to take his wife there... WTF... however my friend knew that he had a wife... I didn't though...
So he is having a family shopping moment with his WIFE in Sams Club steady trying to give my girl this money.... TRIFLIN NO GOOD... Where do they do that at?
So while your wife is in Sams shopping you just walk of and leave to go and give another woman money..ummmmm yeah you are TRIFLIN.
Ladies if you out with your man in a shopping situation and he just mysteriously walks the hell off...ummmm he just may damn well may be cheating on you... I'm just saying!!!
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Brand New Year Brand

Whats up to all of the bloggers and all of those who read blogs.... I have not written on my blog in like almost a year...but it feels so good to be back.
This year is going to be different, better, no more writing about sad depressing relationship life stuff. No more about the world around me that I need to embrace.
Happy to be starting a new year off here... HAPPY NEW YEAR by the way.
But lets get it... I have experienced a lot in my life and have done a lot and I am happy to have made it another year. Thank u Lord!!!
This year I am going to start my empire and do it big... I have already planted that seed for my life.
But to catch everyone I finally graduated... that man that I carried on and on and on about a year ago is no longer a main concern in my life, mostly we are just friends and I have accepted my singledom and moving completely on with my life...infact I have went a little man crazy...
Happy to say I am ready to bounce back out there on these negros and take the world by storm...
I am currently addicted to Twitter and have found a new love for a webcam... nothing raunchy though.. just meeting people...
I am loving and embracing life and the world around me... things aren't always the best but hey ... I am living and that is good enough right.
Follow me @Queen_AG....
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