Good Days and Apologies!

I have been doing really good today. No for real thinking about a certain someone and a certain situation. I did think about the good times though. I was having a conversation with a friend of mine today about a friend of hers who is with a dead beat guy, who doesn't deserve her and treats her bad. Like for instance she got into a car accident and he left her at the hospital by herself with no way to get home. That is horrible. The whole conversation made me think of him and how I am happy he is not a bad person to me, like yeah I know I right about how bad he treats me and what not and make everything seem so much more than it is, but really he is a great guy. He has always and still is a very good person to me and he takes care of . I love it and I am blessed to have him. When I got sick and had surgery from my kidney stone at the end of last school year he took me to the hospital and stayed with me the whole night and didn't leave my side. I really appreciate everything he has done for and I know I may complain a lot about him (believe me I know) but he has a great heart and he really does love me ( you have to, to put up with me for a year). Anyways I guess I want to apologize to him for the past couple of days of tears and madness about nothing. Yeah I feel a lot better today, I was able to know that everything was going to work out in the end. The Lord heard my prayers and answered them. Thank You!!! I am still staying optimistic about this whole "real life" crap I am going through right now but everything will smooth itself out, I know it will. I got to talk to my cousin-in-law today, I think he is a great man and my cousin is a lucky fortunate woman to have met a man who loves her and willing to spend the rest of their life with her. I want that too! I think after he purposed I went marriage crazy and that has been my goal ever since. Like I just want everything to work out like a fairytale for me also. Anyways we talk a little about my future plans after graduation this year and what I have been up to. You know the same ol same, but I enjoy talking to him cause he has a good insight on things and he a spiritual man.That was my day... Good... didn't do a whole lot of anything but either way it was good! I guess I will go read my book or continue to listen to music now and fall asleep til tomorrow.