One day left before I board the plan to fly home to cold Ohio. I think I have not been wanting to go home, but I think now I am excited about it. I will only be home for a week that is all I can take. My not sleeping at night is taking a toll on me, I have slept all day and I am not too happy about it. Like I could have been doing something productive with my time, like reading and finishing my book. I woke up to a wedding special on the Style Network. It was beautiful they got married in Italy and just everything from the bridesmaid dresses to the church everything was very pretty. I want all of that, and I don't know why I just sit around and watch these stupid shows they just make me sad, but they are so damn pretty. I look forward to the day that all of that will come together for me. I don't want a large wedding, just simple, close friends and family on the beach as the sun goes down. I know whenever it is it will be beautiful no matter cause I will be with the man who I want to spend the rest of my life with.
Speaking of him I am highly upset with him. He went out last night and I texted him and called him numerous times and he didn't respond back. I am a bit of a safety worrier and I just wanted to make sure he was safe. I wake up today and I don't even have a missed call, text message nothing. I am so disappointed with him and whatever he was doing that he could not respond to me. He has never not responded to me he always lets me know he is OK and always replies back cause he knows how I am. He probably thinks that I was trying to check up on him and honestly no I was not I just like to make sure he was safe. I didn't care what he was doing, if he was doing something that I would not approve of I can't do anything about it anyways cause he is there I am all the way over here. I would like to know what was going on for him not to have answered his messages on his phone. I am really upset about it, but I know I have to stay calm.
Anyways, today I have a lot to do so I will get to it. I have this feeling that I will be back though that I will have something to write about.