Summing things Up... the end of the 1st Week of Feb.

My life has made a turn for the better yall. I am working on seriously getting my life together and actually witnessing the progress. I am so grateful and blessed to have wonderful people around me all the time. My job search is going well and I have made strides to making a very good career decision. I have had several interviews with a very promising outlook. I am working and striving everyday to get back on my feet and back into my own place as soon as possible. I look forward to the COME UP that is ahead of me.
My love life ... its the usual hot mess it always is. I'm finding myself in situations that ummmm maybe I should have thought twice about. However, everything in life is a learning decision and I have managed to learn oh so much from the hot mess people I allow to be in my life. Now I say allow only because... they give me something to be entertained by with the constant games that are played yet I am the Master of mastering the Games that are being played. Currently I don't want to build a relationship with anyone whom I feel I may have doubts in only cause I'm 22 and I have a mission that I need to succeed in. If a guy is not on the same page as me or not even trying to be in the first place we can't continue on.
But enough about relationships and love. I don't want to always be that boring chick that all she has to talk about is relationships and dumb men.. that gets soo old. So in lighter news GO SAINTS. I got to watch the Super Bowl yesterday and i was thoroughly ecstatic about the Saints taking down the Colts. I will be quick to say I am not a bandwagon chick I was cheering for the Saints the whole time, however, I do not have a favorite NFL team. I enjoyed watching the game and watching some of the commercials... My favorite commercial from the whole night was the Doritos commercial with the little boy whos' mom was going out on the date. The little boy slapped the man and told him "keep your hands off my mama and keep your hands off my Doritos" LMAO... the best commercial all night.
I wish I had something to say about halftime but I didn't watch it... I wasn't to interested in The Who and what they were singing. I will say this though about Super Bowl Halftime Shows... they have sucked ever since Janet Jackson and Justin Timberlake performed... I think they need to have younger artist perform and no I'm not necessarily asking for the hot mess artist of my generation but maybe have like a plethora of different artist to appeal to all that watch the Super Bowl ... hell halftime is like 20 minutes.
Well enough of this I getting back on twitter... twitter has totally taken over my life... its very sad actually but I LOVE TWITTER... it is my way to instantly express how I feel at any given moment. I am an Twitterhead and proud of it...lol... Anyways LOVE, LIVE, LAUGH

Mending a Broken Heart Pt.1

I had an intervention tonight about myself. Funny thing is i know how i am and why i am the way i am... my father.
The anger, frustration, abandonment and rejection i feel from that man leaving out of my life 14 years ago has done bad things to me. everything that i am today and how i am today all stems back to that man disappearing out of my life oh back when.
the scary thing of all of it is that i have tried so hard to repress my emotions about that man and it has done some ugly things to my life. My father leaving me and then going off and having 5 more children after me just really destroyed me. This man used to get me off the school bus every single damn day. And then all of a sudden he is just gone. WTH
Even scarier thought is that i will continue to have hardships and ruined relationships because of all the pain that man has put me through. I am tired of having failed relationships with people and having a disconnect from men that could potentially be a husband for me. i have found myself being interested in a man now and im scared to let him see Ugly me... cause it is ugly. I have ome baggage that comes along with loving me. but until i learn to forgive my father for what he has done to me and let it go or pass my emotions off of me and back on him i will continue to have this baggage and ugly side that no man will ever want to willingly put up with. So tomorrow or maybe even later on this week i am going to start a letter to send to that man about how i feel and what i have felt for the past 14 years. Granted i am 22 years old and grown as hell, i don't want to carry this on with me any longer. I ready to recieve my blessing and i now see i have been blocking it this whole time by harboring this anger for over a decade.
Live Laugh Love

Cheating @ Sam's

So men are a hot mess... just all around a hot mess.
I have this whole story that can back up why I say men are a hot mess..
So interesting situation that I was in 2 days ago with my friend whos name will stay disclosed.
We had made plans to go and what not on Saturday and we had planned out our whole day and what we were going to do before we went out. So on Friday we had a sleepover at her house to get ready for Saturday. So saturday comes and she is waiting around to see if some of her family members are going to Western Union her some money... but that failed... so she went to another source in here rolodex... She called up this guy who owns a few clubs and what not but has a little extra change... So he decides that he is going to give her some money to hold her over for the rest of the weekend.
So we get up and get ready and leave the house around like 4 o clock... and we stopped and went to my house because I had left without my lipgloss (can't live without it) besides the fact that dude was on good BS not answering the phone.... so he finally texted back and had told her to meet at this gas station that was out in the boonies... cause he lived a good 20 minutes outside of the city.... so we sat there waiting at that gas station for a good 15 mins.. she kept texting and calling trying to find out where he was and when he was coming.. the whole time he sitting there telling us he on the way he still getting ready, making all kind of excuses....
So finally he called her and told her that he is at Sams Club.... he had to take his wife there... WTF... however my friend knew that he had a wife... I didn't though...
So he is having a family shopping moment with his WIFE in Sams Club steady trying to give my girl this money.... TRIFLIN NO GOOD... Where do they do that at?
So while your wife is in Sams shopping you just walk of and leave to go and give another woman money..ummmmm yeah you are TRIFLIN.
Ladies if you out with your man in a shopping situation and he just mysteriously walks the hell off...ummmm he just may damn well may be cheating on you... I'm just saying!!!
LIVE LAUGH LOVE

Brand New Year Brand

Whats up to all of the bloggers and all of those who read blogs.... I have not written on my blog in like almost a year...but it feels so good to be back.
This year is going to be different, better, no more writing about sad depressing relationship life stuff. No more about the world around me that I need to embrace.
Happy to be starting a new year off here... HAPPY NEW YEAR by the way.
But lets get it... I have experienced a lot in my life and have done a lot and I am happy to have made it another year. Thank u Lord!!!
This year I am going to start my empire and do it big... I have already planted that seed for my life.
But to catch everyone I finally graduated... that man that I carried on and on and on about a year ago is no longer a main concern in my life, mostly we are just friends and I have accepted my singledom and moving completely on with my life...infact I have went a little man crazy...
Happy to say I am ready to bounce back out there on these negros and take the world by storm...
I am currently addicted to Twitter and have found a new love for a webcam... nothing raunchy though.. just meeting people...
I am loving and embracing life and the world around me... things aren't always the best but hey ... I am living and that is good enough right.
Follow me @Queen_AG....
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what would make me want to blog at 12:34 in the morning.... Idk .... couldn't tell you honestly.... yeah I know lets stop lying....

lets set the mood here or more so just get the scenario of what is going

I am sitting out side on my breezeway drinking wine and blogging under the moonlight watching cars drive by listening to music.... mostly just go rock bottom on repeat.... for those who don't know that is Pleasure P's song with Lil wayne... I love lil wayne.. I remember last summer anticipating his album Tha Carter 3 to come out and how me and my "ex"- boyfriend listened to it all summer long.... that is all we had in the cd player in the car all last summer.... everyday...my mind is so clear right now... I feel completely real right now ... I know I haven't blogged in so long but I have been working on my book... coming soon.. it is going to be great it is going to be a book for young women to read to motivate them to stay focused and keep going and never let anyone, not even a man stop them and hold them back .... but i have also been working too.... I finally got a job ... it is not my dream job ... just a part-time at Red lobster... the Lord is good he heard my prayer and blessed me and I am so thankful. .. i feel so mellow right now.... it feels good ... you know not to have a care in the world ... not worry about anything...my ex went to the movies tonight with another woman ....not a date... but Idk how to take it ......like lately i have been trying to control my emotions and function like a normal person.... I have been doing pretty well as far as trying to function and getting use to it ... you know making it a normal part of life...i went to go see the hangover tonight... man it was funny as hell.... they had the dude in it from Old School who was the wedding singer in old school as the wedding singer in the Hangover.... he was funny as hell again... my ex got me hip to that movie and now it is one of my favorites..... I am so beyond words right now where I am .... I feel good though....

we said we would be friends and I honestly wasn't quite sure about it... i have never been friends with one of my exes ever.... so i didn't know how to take it ....but lately I have been doing very well with it.... i STill am ... I am completely ok with the fact that he went to go see a movie that we should have went to go see together ....the hangover is one of those stupid movies that me and him would watch together .... and we didn't even go see it together.. he went with another female.... I don't know how to feel honestly I don't ... I am not angry or sad I actually feel blank... lol... as funny as that sounds...i keep thinking i am going to cry but no tears come out so I stop acting... I stop making a scene as he always tells me..... I am just chillin.... you know...but the movie was great.... real funny.... transformers was better though.... me and him went to go see transformers... which was way better than the hangover.... it was great, phenomenal..... I guess he is ready to move on maybe i should too.... maybe that is how I should take everything.... as a key to just move on with my life and search for the next guy that will end up breaking up with me cause I am too much for the to deal with.... it is so not fair why can't i find someone who loves me for who I am and they are just happy with who I am .... My life is taking new strides and I am so happy because of it.... so maybe something will work out.... I could probably type all night but that is not what I want to do... so goodnight world til another day
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Boredom: Jon and Kate fiasco, Graduation Celebrations, Chinese Imperial Dogs

I survived graduation and both my roommates family and my man's. It has been a good past 3 days and I have enjoyed the festivities. I am so ready for everything to get back to normal now in normal....lol. I am proud of all of my "friends" who graduated yesterday and wish them all the best. I was a little down that I couldn't share in the enjoyment because I didn't get that ceremony yesterday but I made it through without being to sad about the whole thing. I got over my irritation from the other day once I finished all of my finals and was able to party with everyone else. Good Times.

I am really bored right now trying to find something to get into. Today is my man's birthday and we spent the majority of the day together with his mother and sister, whom I enjoyed a lot. I am happy for everything he has done in the past two days. His fraternity brothers are throwing him a birthday party tonight. I pray for no mischief and safety. But I know that everything should be all well.

I have been on twitter and on the Internet just trying to keep myself busy. So I have been completely intrigued by the developing situation with Jon and Kate from the TLC show Jon & Kate Plus 8. So this is my theory on the situation. I feel like he very well could have been spending time with this other woman, but I don't believe that he had any sexual contact with that woman. I have read all the reports and seen all the pictures. I believe that the other woman and her brother are starving for a little 15 minutes of fame and trying to blow the whole situation out of proportion. You must be aware of your surroundings and the people you allow in your surroundings. And how do you cheat on someone you have 8 frikkin kids with, the idea is completely crazy to me.

Next, I have been online looking for the dog that I want to get. Yeah I know I have to find an apartment first but I just wanted to look at the different breeds and see which one's I like. I liked a lot of the little dogs I saw but it was one in particular that I really like, a Chinese Imperial Dog. It was the cutest thing I have seen since my childhood Yorkshire Terrier. It is a special breed and so it is kind of expensive but well worth the money... hint hint! lol.

Oh well done blogging for the night. Need to go figure out what to do with the rest of my night besides sit on this computer... Adios

Venting my Irritation

So my irritation level is on high right now. I am so over all of the excitement that is around me about this Friday's graduation. Like I try to enjoy only because I know that this is my last semester of school also. I will be graduated in July only because of discrepancy that my University failed to disclose with me off the bat. So basically I am screwed and can't walk with my class all because of 2 credit hours. And the 2 credit hours aren't even a major part of my degree program, they are extra-curricular classes that they require us to take 15 hours of.

But I am just really over all of the partying and loudness and hella people outside my apartment every night celebrating. Most of them are celebrating for nothing, hell you barely accomplished graduating from college and you more than likely not moving on to anything. I am trying to be happy and get happy cause my boyfriends parents and family are coming tomorrow and I am excited for him, hell I got him to this point today, lol.

I am excited though to meet his sister and just to celebrate this momentous occasion with him. So I guess that is really the only thing that keeps me going this week, cause otherwise I would have went off on everyone in my path and rained on their "happy" celebration parades.

My next irritation factors has to do with the people I call my friends. I am so over friendships with people. I hate the unreliable friends that I have. I hate the inconsistency that they possess. I have some cool friends some friends who are great and I know that if I text or call them that they will at least respond. Everyday this week my number of real close friends has dwindled from like eight or seven to like four, literally. It is sad, maybe I should become a recluse, but no that is so not my personality. Oh well I will go and twitter no it will make me feel better, some what, lol.